I'm just a girl making it through the days with a smile on her face and an open mind.
All these things just scream at me “you aren’t good enough! Almost but not quite!” He makes me feel important and worth something. He makes me feel like I have value and I’m not a total failure.
I want to win tomorrow night just as much as the others. But for me it’s more than just the title and the respect that comes with the award. It would show me that I’m not completely hopeless like I sometimes feel. It would show me I could do something right. Just for once I would be good enough.
I don’t want to sit around and make a fucking idiot of myself which is exactly what I’m doing. If you want to fucking talk then maybe you should fucking reply. I’m not like them. I won’t chase you around. Fuck that.
And why doesn’t water polo or swim ever get the recognition that basketball or football gets. We are actually good. More than once every 10 years.
Fuck man. I’m done. Dueces.
CRAP. I feel myself falling..
it’s so cute when you talk to someone a lot and then you notice the little phrases that you use and the stupid little things you say slipping into their vocabulary more and more